funny thing about change. we spend so much time trying to avoid it, but when it catches up with you, you realize it's not so bad. it tends to jostle you out of your "normal" and force you to find a new way of thinking. sometimes, that's not such a bad thing. just because things are difficult does not mean that they are wrong.
there is no point in wishing for a different outcome, or second guessing any decisions made along the way. a 17 year marriage is quite an accomplishment these days, and i don't regret one second of it.
i know i'm strong enough to stand on my own two feet. and, with the help of my family and wonderful friends, i will overcome the fear of the unknown.
that having been said, it's still pretty scary stuff.
i've found myself begging friends to help me do things like put up pictures, hook up the wireless internet, and fix any and everything mechanical. yesterday, when the boys were with doug, a gigantic cockroach came charging out of the laundry room. figured the cat would capture it for me, but he was worthless......these are things i'm going to have to learn to do on my own.
not sure which tasks will be the most difficult for me. bug killing? cooking? juggling work and family? eventually, i will master them all. plus a few extras just for fun :)
